A bit of a turnabout
Yes, I’ve had a different perspective.
Quite often I blog about the impact of emotional pain on the body. However, I’ve had some personal insight, just a glimmer, a small realisation of what it might be like in the reverse situation – the impact of physical pain on mental health and the emotions. An insight of what it might be like to be elderly or have long term physical illness.And it is just that, an insight, I tore a calf muscle while doing fitness training, a sudden injury which floored me (literally).
I know it will get better, I know I can rest, have physio and massages to help me.
For a while I had to use crutches, had to hop or walk on tip toes, couldn’t drive, run or stretch. I felt pain, I felt helpless, I couldn’t look after myself or my family as I usually do. They couldn’t get used to it and nor could I.
I was stuck inside, couldn’t really go anywhere and it dawned on me that these feelings were common in those who were/are physically ill in the longer term, only much more so. In that short time, I began to feel very low, misunderstood and not supported and tried to explain to people that even though I looked ok (except for a limp) I didn’t feel ok.
I run my own business, I had to cancel events and work as I couldn’t get to them. However, I had to get going quite quickly otherwise my business would falter and I was riddled with guilt that I was letting others down.
So why have I written about this, just to say ‘I get it’, even though it was comparatively brief, I got a sharp reminder of what others feel who are incapacitated for whatever reason. I have worked as a counsellor with the elderly and those with disabilities, I felt empathy and supported them in a variety of ways, now I have some real insight.
For all those people who are suffering long term injury or illness, I really admire you getting through every day and still trying so hard to work or help others in a wide variety of ways.
You are all in my thoughts